The Bitterness that is my Life: Archive

“Is this a new friend? Is he from craigslist, or that other site… what’s it...”

– Katie louise Pierce (via karldoesbenjamin) well this is silly.

Jan 6th

Apology

So I just got the apology that I have been waiting years to get. Amazing? I think so.

Jan 6th

Boys

Why can’t boys just tell you what they think of you from the begining? It is so frustrating to think that something might happen and then it doesn’t because boys are just dumb. I just want one boy who will tell me what he honestly thinks.

Dec 16th

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Alone

I am alone. Now I don’t mean that I am alone in the room that I’m sitting in right now. (which I am) I mean that I am alone. I have no one. Literally no one. Pretty sure I’m just going to curl up into a ball and cry myself to sleep. Maybe that will get rid of all this pain.

Dec 7th

Creeper

keleleke: someonemademe: karldoesbenjamin: someonemademe: so i can honestly admit that i am a creeper. and i’m pretty good at it too. but i do it to people that i know and really it’s not even being a creeper but just being well informed about other people. the problem that i’m having is that there is a guy who is creeping on me and i am scared shitless now. like for reals. this kid just...

Dec 4th

Creeper

karldoesbenjamin: someonemademe: so i can honestly admit that i am a creeper. and i’m pretty good at it too. but i do it to people that i know and really it’s not even being a creeper but just being well informed about other people. the problem that i’m having is that there is a guy who is creeping on me and i am scared shitless now. like for reals. this kid just talked to me yesterday and...

Dec 4th

Creeper

so i can honestly admit that i am a creeper. and i’m pretty good at it too. but i do it to people that i know and really it’s not even being a creeper but just being well informed about other people. the problem that i’m having is that there is a guy who is creeping on me and i am scared shitless now. like for reals. this kid just talked to me yesterday and informed me that he is...

Dec 3rd

Feeling

I hate this feeling. I don’t know what to do. I am so confused and can’t help but cry about it. I really wish that i could figure out what is going on. Well I guess I’m just going to sit and pretend that everything is normal. Just like usual.

Sep 30th

“One who asks a question is a fool for five minutes; one who does not ask a...”

Sep 30th

Curled up under my blankets, sometimes having...

(via karldoesbenjamin) I feel the same way

Sep 29th

Reblog if you want a hug right now.

rhymeswithnash: rhymeorreason:mynoisyheart:thisisheartbreak:(via jadeharrison)

Sep 27th

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Wrong?

Is it wrong that someone’s status makes me extremely happy?? Like so happy! I can not even tell you how happy this status makes me. I feel like such a bitch for feeling this way but no lie I am so happy about this status. Oh man i’m a bitch

Sep 10th

Birthdays

I’m not really sure that I’ve had a successful birthday. Today was a definite fail. Not sure there is anyone to blame but myself. That what makes it such a bad day. I put all this pressure on everyone else to make this day great for me, but the only one who could make it great was me and i didn’t do it. So i am just going to sit in my room and do nothing because that’s what...

Sep 8th

Last night

So last night was fun. It’s always fun to be told that you dance on tables for money and that is the reason your bf broke up with you. Especially since you were the one who broke up with your bf and you’ve never danced on a table at all, let alone for money.

Aug 30th

So you see there's this wedding. . .

and i kinda have to go to it concidering it’s my brother’s wedding. Downfall to this is that the person who I was having come as my guest is going to have to work until 2:30 and the wedding starts at 3. EPIC FAIL on her part. So now I’m stuck sitting through the one part of the wedding by myself, which is what I really didn’t want to do. The other issue is that it’s...

Aug 29th

I found my very own little person.... my dreams of...

karldoesbenjamin: someonemademe: (via karldoesbenjamin) please become like her because i love her and i love you. it would make my life complete. :) I am working on it, i must be slow in approaching the little one I spotted as chelsea would say, they are frightened easily this is very true

Aug 26th

Roommate time!

So I just spent all evening with my roommate. She trusted me to dye her hair. I am not sure if this was a good idea or not yet. lol we’ll have to find out tomorrow. We are now watching the Hannah Montana movie. Sad day concidering that i really don’t like her.

Aug 26th

I found my very own little person.... my dreams of...

(via karldoesbenjamin) please become like her because i love her and i love you. it would make my life complete. :)

Aug 26th

:)

So I’m really surprised at how well things have been going for me lately. I appreciate it. :)

Aug 24th

Today

So today was not my favorite day. Not the worst day ever, but certainly not my favorite. I really wish that today would’ve been a better day. At least then I wouldn’t be sitting here just wanting to bawl. That’s how I’ve been feeling all night. Well at least I had a little fun today with one of my favorite people in the world.

Aug 7th

Aug 1st

This is so creepily accurate. . .

Name: Ariana Date: 7/27/2009 Colorgenics Number: 13425607 You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that ‘True love is just around the corner’ and - if you haven’t found it as...

Jul 28th

Dreams who knows what they really mean.

Oh my God! that has to be one of the funniest dreams I’ve ever heard that someone had of me. :) lol keleleke: karldoesbenjamin: Last night I had a dream that Kelsey keleleke was driving with Ari someonemademe and myself down some hick road, when we drove through a red light, but because Ari and I didnt have seatbelts on we kept driving for a while. When we finally stopped the cop got out...

Jul 21st

Sleep

It is a very interesting concept. I seem to have the worst luck with trying to fall asleep at night. Now I have to get up in the morning and I’m not sure if I’m going to be able to get my ass out of bed. Hopefully I can. Otherwise my little brother is going to be pissed.

Jul 16th

Bitter

It is really bitter when you hear a song and it relates to a bad part of your life that you wish you could change…

Jul 6th

Tomorrow

So tomorrow is a big day. But it’s not a day that anyone but I will know about. It’s not a day that anyone will understand the importance of. It’s just another day for most people. But for me, it’s an important day. And I’m not sure if the one person who could know how important this day is will even remember. That’s what sucks. Knowing that someone else should...

Jul 1st

QAF update:

I really feel as though I should start watching this show. karldoesbenjamin: I finally had the guts to finish the episode, it only took 12 hours to work up the will power to sit it through. I will never feel the same towards Michael and Davids relationship. I do not think the outcome is going to work, but onto more.

Jun 30th

Why do I care anymore? Why do I even care what is going on? Why do I let this effect my life? Just one big question of why?

Jun 28th

Done

I agree karldoesbenjamin: someonemademe: I’m done. Just plain done with all of this shit. I don’t want to deal with this anymore and I shouldn’t have to. I just want someone to want me and I don’t feel like that in my current situation. I just want all this bull shit to be over with. I just need to find the courage to end this. It’s not worth all the work that I’m putting into it. And right now...

Jun 27th

Done

I’m done. Just plain done with all of this shit. I don’t want to deal with this anymore and I shouldn’t have to. I just want someone to want me and I don’t feel like that in my current situation. I just want all this bull shit to be over with. I just need to find the courage to end this. It’s not worth all the work that I’m putting into it. And right now all I...

Jun 27th

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Jun 26th

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3 am

So… it’s past 3 am and i can’t sleep. fuck my life! why can’t i sleep? oh that’s right. it’s because i have too much shit on my mind right now. which means that my brain won’t shut off. which means that i don’t get to sleep. funny how that works.

Jun 26th

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Jun 26th

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Where are you my Love!! You need to come back!!

Jun 19th

So i really need to figure stuff out soon. I hate not know what I should do. The worst part is knowing that it has to end eventually, but not wanting it to at the same time. It’s completely confusing. And frustrating. Any advice?

Jun 17th

Where are you my love? You need to come back to me. We have lots to talk about

Jun 17th

tumblarity.

i completely agree. it’s completely dumb pandorasbox13: I don’t like it. Can we make it go away please?

Jun 17th

I miss people

So I’ve been away from home for almost two weeks and it is such a weird experience. I really wanted to spend more time at home and spend it with the people I care about, but instead I moved into a new apartment with a roommate that I really haven’t spoken to in a while. I miss my family. I miss my friends. I miss the boi. And then to make everything better, some of these people have...

Jun 10th

Jun 5th

My version of Meet the Parents. . .

So meeting the family of the person that you are dating is the most nerve racking thing ever. Now I should say that I have meet his parents, but I had never meet his extended family. And I will also be meeting some of his extended family in a few weeks but it was still so scary. I don’t know that a little old grandma and grandpa have ever made me more nevous in my entire life. But the reward...

May 30th

What’s going on? Is there anything I can do for you? monoleadstothis: so I have this major problem that I dont know who to turn to for help, but I am so worried about it that i am going to vomit all over. pretty much I am scared, with out a person to help me. I need to ask for help but I dont think my parents will listen.

May 28th

:) :) :) :)

I really love it when someone surprises me. It just makes me feel good to know that people don’t always have to fail and that sometimes we can win. That’s probably the best part. Winning. :)

May 21st

Can't I just have this one thing?

Okay but don’t hurt him too bad. He lost his phone last night and texted me a very apologetic message this morning. monoleadstothis: someonemademe: So this is becoming a weekly thing of having doubts about people. Or rather just one person. But it really sucks. I hate doubting people. All I want is to be appreciated and I really don’t feel like I am. I feel like I’m just being used. And...

May 19th

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May 19th

Can't I just have this one thing?

So this is becoming a weekly thing of having doubts about people. Or rather just one person. But it really sucks. I hate doubting people. All I want is to be appreciated and I really don’t feel like I am. I feel like I’m just being used. And that is the worst thing I have ever felt

May 19th

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"That was a mistake..."

I am a little worried about it but I will try and stop worrying. i LOVE you too monoleadstothis: oh honey, don’t worry about it. i LOVE you someonemademe: Who said this? monoleadstothis: I am just remembering the famous last words spoken to me, seconds after we finished. Sometimes I hurt.

May 18th